Shock and Awe

I should have seen the signs. Why was I so blind? They were everywhere. Inconsistencies that didn't make any sense. I could have asked, I could have done something! Something to stop it, something to prevent it... It was all so obvious, in retrospect. All the pieces fall into the puzzle once the answer's revealed. But what can be done now? It's done, over, gone. And I just watched it happen, oblivious to it all...

Kinda gripping, eh? Fortunately it was something wonderful that happened, and I'd like to thank yall for participating. But it does make one wonder. What if it had been something horrible? Undetected love, a suicide, a Columbine... I'm too oblivious for my own good! There's that nihilism, not caring enough to ask questions. Heh, it's rather humorous. Ah well.

Some signs I should have noticed:
1. Ellen takes command of Rachel's house and states we'll have a movie night seemingly on the fly. It's almost like it was planned in advance... But it was "forgotten about" and all was normal.
2. Rachel speaks of said night as if Ellen hadn't said anything, though it seems proposterous.
3. My grandfather doesn't do things Saturday night. It was all too convenient.
4. My mother doesn't mend. EVER. And yet, she up and decides to have me change shirts because the one I had on had a hole in it. Crazy moms...
5. My mother also tries to put make-up on my nose. It was insane. She seemed so intent on doing it, I didn't bother to ask why. She didn't succeed though...
6. Mother and Carrie went out but never said where they were going.
7. Rachel's car was pulled into the top of the driveway, making it so I could only park at the top.
8. All the lights were turned out, even though it was clear others were home.

I never asked about any of these things. Thus, it was a success. I certainly enjoyed it, it was beautifully done. The attention to detail, the planning ahead. They even told you not to bring presents since I do dislike them so... Besides a few comments by my father in drunken stupors and hitting the tree, I'd say that's the most surprised I can remember being. It was completely unexpected, but in a pleasant way.

Loaded Questions was entertaining, but I hope no one's feelings were hurt. Ellen had the unfortunate privilege of being the butt of a running joke, but I still think she's a great gal. Sarah's responses were certainly "interesting." I didn't realize calling people gay as an insult was still "in" but there you are. I did rather like her response to the question of what you'd change about high school: "Well, Zack has herpes. So..." I like dark humor as long as there's no real ill will behind it. With Sarah I can't really tell... At any rate, hopefully we can play it again without so many people sometime.

So thanks again everybody. Now I get to focus on how old I am. In a few more days, I can't rationalize all my mistakes as youthful indiscretions anymore. Now they're just regular discretions with a youthful flair. Hoo-rah.