You know, I've been thinking about my SOSE project (the quasi-novel) quite a bit, and if you go to my "Novel Ideas" post, you'll find quite a few spoilers I continually update so I don't forget them. The strangest part is, I had some preliminary ideas that were just a jumble, not interrconnected really, but I'd make them minorly so. Then I had an idea today and all of a sudden, I've got at three three themes and some pretty nice symbolism going on. There are some good ethical questions, some philosophy, conflicting messages, the works.
Unfortunately, it brings up three issues: One, can I pull it off? I think it's got some good, quality ideas. I'm familiar with the emotional parts (misanthropy, despair, idle curiosity, jealousy), and some arguments behind the philosophy and ethical sides. If my writing "skills" are up to the challenge, it might actually turn out pretty good. But, the second issue is that if I can't pull it off, the idea's largely destroyed. Perhaps if I saved it a few years and came back it might be better. Or perhaps I'd have lost interest by then. I don't know. So the final issue arises, what do I want out of this? To even dream of "publication" is pretentious and ludicrous in and of itself. So do I write it, turn it in, burn it out of self-loathing, and think "Yeah, I wrote a novel. It was terrible. That's why I've lost all ambition for anything better than contentment. Spiffy, eh?" Sounds good to me...
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