Ugh

Well, I was right. Don't you hate it when that happens? It turns out when I've no good video games and no summer reading, I'm lost. Unmotivated to the extreme! So to combat said quandry, I believe I'll try to make myself start reading. 1984 is first, followed by Harry Potters 5 and 6 (yes, I'll read them, but only because I vaguely remember the first 4 being good). After that, who knows? I don't know if I'll be able to read successfully. My attention always wanders, and I get overcome with this sense of insecurity. Why oh why couldn't I have inherited my mother's gift for painting/drawing instead of trying to pave my way into writing? Ah well. I keep wanting to write something, to build a real story with real characters and subsequently destroy them. However, I'm forcing myself to delay my next writing project until I'm firmly cemented into college, if not out of it. I may write the villain novel as my senior project at UT, then write my spiritual atheist when/if the country recedes even further into Puritannical nonsense. I just keep having this feeling that I need to hurry before someone else beats me to the punch... I guess there are always other ideas if those fall through.

In other news, I've invested in Netflicks so I can at least finish Six Feet Under before UT. I figure with that, coupled with my hopefully revived interest in reading and the imminent arrival of "Grim Fandango" (an older adventure game for the PC), I should be adequately entertained until school starts. I'd be tempted to have multiple parties/get-to-get-hers, but my home is severely lacking in appropriate facilities and is an all around stressful place to be. Maybe when I acquire a swinging bachelor pad of my own I can have all sorts of wild boardgame related escapades. Or maybe just lots of sex. Oh Fate, which path will you pick? I guess you could surprise me and do both, possibly simultaneously. *shudder* You really are a wily son of an anarchist...

And on that note, I bid you all cheers, adieu, and/or cancer. (I can only afford two of the three. Take your pick.)