Have you ever been depressed to the point that all your actions just seem lethargic? Sometimes you collapse in your chair as music or the TV flows in and out of your head, probably only making the situation worse as you think, "I should be doing something" but the will to move is not there. Then you have to jerk yourself into action and the momentum carries you through your next series of actions.
It's especially prevalent on weekends, when I lie in bed, my mind in its weakest state (This is generally when hormones dominate. My conscious sexual thoughts almost always come on days when I have no obligations, and I just lie in bed, not motivated enough to rise. I think thoughts I feel ashamed of almost as soon as I finally become motivated enough to shake the stupor and begin the day's rituals. It's not that I don't have sexual thoughts outside of this weakened state, I do. I am human. But the distinction is that on these mornings I don't bother fighting them.) I lie in bed, knowing that I've slept all I need to sleep, knowing that my day is wasting, knowing that my life itself is wasting, and come to think of it that's probably not helpful in the motivation department, now is it?
And now, I look outside myself and see the depression and realize a quick jolt will get me out of it. I wait, though, for some reason. Why would I do such a crazy thing? Already I can feel a bit of life stirring. It just takes the realization of what is happening in order for me to have the ability to shake them, why don't I? I don't know.
I blame Communism, really I do. It's like "We're all for the ho's, yo" and I'm like "Fo'shizzle, you be trippin' Communism." Then Communism gets all in my face with its redness and I'm like "Man, you ain't got nothin' fo real" and Communism gets upset and starts crying, so I have to console it and then we go out for ice cream. You can see my dilemma.
So, the real question we're all ignoring is, did it work? Exit polls show a slight majority going with the incumbent, but one can never trust such dastardly excuses for good statistics.
Well, did it?
No comments:
Post a Comment