I got bored, so I did this:

Making up Bob Dole Quotes
From Uncyclopedia

"Bob Dole enjoys kittens on a stick." -Bob Dole

"Bob Dole firmly believes Calvin Coolidge could kick your ass." -Bob Dole

"At least Bob Dole's not gay." -Bob Dole (commenting on the more popular "Making Up Oscar Wilde Quotes")

"Never say I."-Bob Dole

"Bob Dole." -Bob Dole

Ugh

Well, I was right. Don't you hate it when that happens? It turns out when I've no good video games and no summer reading, I'm lost. Unmotivated to the extreme! So to combat said quandry, I believe I'll try to make myself start reading. 1984 is first, followed by Harry Potters 5 and 6 (yes, I'll read them, but only because I vaguely remember the first 4 being good). After that, who knows? I don't know if I'll be able to read successfully. My attention always wanders, and I get overcome with this sense of insecurity. Why oh why couldn't I have inherited my mother's gift for painting/drawing instead of trying to pave my way into writing? Ah well. I keep wanting to write something, to build a real story with real characters and subsequently destroy them. However, I'm forcing myself to delay my next writing project until I'm firmly cemented into college, if not out of it. I may write the villain novel as my senior project at UT, then write my spiritual atheist when/if the country recedes even further into Puritannical nonsense. I just keep having this feeling that I need to hurry before someone else beats me to the punch... I guess there are always other ideas if those fall through.

In other news, I've invested in Netflicks so I can at least finish Six Feet Under before UT. I figure with that, coupled with my hopefully revived interest in reading and the imminent arrival of "Grim Fandango" (an older adventure game for the PC), I should be adequately entertained until school starts. I'd be tempted to have multiple parties/get-to-get-hers, but my home is severely lacking in appropriate facilities and is an all around stressful place to be. Maybe when I acquire a swinging bachelor pad of my own I can have all sorts of wild boardgame related escapades. Or maybe just lots of sex. Oh Fate, which path will you pick? I guess you could surprise me and do both, possibly simultaneously. *shudder* You really are a wily son of an anarchist...

And on that note, I bid you all cheers, adieu, and/or cancer. (I can only afford two of the three. Take your pick.)

I made a new blog for when I feel the urge to write weird-like. The posts may or may not be connected, and I won't edit them, but when you want to write, you write. So... here it is.

Success!

My efforts towards equal distrubition of fascist dictatorial evil are working!

Puritans Smuritans

So I'm turning into a bit of an anti-Puritan. I'm achieving mixed results. I hate the guilt aspect, but being the erudite I'm not, I decided to do a bit more reading. I came across this gem. Apparently, that whacko James Dobson is pro-masturbation. So that's nice. However...

"Lots of young guys compare erections and masturbate with other young guys out of curiosity. This is not a big deal as long as it doesn't become a habit. It doesn't mean you are gay because it turned you on. It is more a passing curiosity phase. If you have been involved in "comparing notes" then let the phase move on - don't get locked into having the presence of another boy with you as your method of getting turned on."

I'll take that into consideration as my attempts to get rid of all that subconscious guilt progress. I mean, I can barely stand my own, much less someone else's. *sigh* This Puritan thing will be harder to beat than I thought. Damn.

Heh, there's something Puritans are good at. But I cursed! Haha! Score one for me!

Wow

David Icke doesn't hold a candle to this. It's downright horrific. I can't think of anything else to say that isn't common sense. It certainly makes my parents look like saints.

Calvin Coolidge was Young Once Too

And he became President! A curt one at that!

Anyway, I haven't posted in awhile. I've had things to talk about, but AIM has distracted me. I want to make some sort of entry though.

I delivered some lumber Saturday to this guy's house. He lived in a sort of poor neighborhood with a modest house along with his girlfriend (maybe wife). He'd invited some friends over to help unload the lumber with him.

I was just, I don't know, taken aback by their attitudes. They seemed so relaxed and mellow. Not stoner, brain dead mellow. Just sort of pleased with life, at peace. And I want that. I want it really badly. To be relaxed and at peace, to not worry and stress all the time. To not doubt myself and my future to the point of self-annihilation.

I had a breakdown to a point you're not comfortable with me talking about this weekend. I essentially doomed my teaching plan to failure because I knew I'd be too... different in my approach. More fun, less boring stuff. Which would probably get me fired, thus ruining the plan I have for my own personal peace. It lasted until I got angry today, charged if you will. I decided that I would make it work. I would put enough effort into forging a path that it would work, no buts about it. I got a bit of "determination."

And that's what I need. I need to get into a mindset where I try to be happy instead of just "accepting" what happens. Instead of thinking in terms of what will happen to me, I need to think in terms of what I'll make happen for me. I just hope I'm able to keep it up.