Ask Not What Your Preacher can do for You...

Eh. Eh I say! So graduation's coming up and all the seniors are leaving. Even yesterday afternoon seemed empty right after school with them all gone in their grown-up shenanigans. But that's the way these things happen. After graduation, I'll probably never see most of them again, and the ones I do, I'll see them maybe once or twice. They're just gone, lost on the winds of time. It's almost a shame. But comings and goings are they way of our fleeting existences. People come into your life, stay awhile, and leave. What you do with them while they're there is what's important, and I feel like I haven't done enough. But that's the price of bumitude, and it's a steep one.

Speaking of doing things with others, last night was our grand tent revival. I was very impressed with Ellen, Rachel, and Morgan and their commitment and ability. But I was disgusted with mine. Not only did not have my lines memorized (believe it or not, I did sort of have them down, but I didn't want to risk forgetting in the middle of my tirade so I kept the script with me), but I did horribly! I mispronounced words (it sounds like a stupid JFK impersonation, emphasis on stupid), gave a lackluster performance, not to mention I looked downright goofy. Although I think a lot of that is nothing new. It's very hard and shocking, seeing oneself for what you really are. Hearing what your voice actually sounds like. When I see myself, and my big teeth and huge...Adams Apple is it?...and just my rather goofy demeanor and dorkish voice it disturbs me. I don't like being superficial, but it's hard not to. They're hard things to change. Ah well. At least I didn't have a panic attack.

And last, but certainly not least, I'm launching my fifth blog! Yes, www.abnerdoubleday.blogspot.com is now in commission. In it I plan on writing what I did not do today, humorous, zany, or not. Any of you are welcome to join in too, but only one sentence per day. No time or frequency requirements though, and everyone at any time is welcome. Just email me. Check it out, it should be fun.