There comes a time in many people's lives when they look back on the past few days, months, years, and eons and begin to wonder what exactly they were thinking. This seems a frequent recurrence in my day to day life. I have all this time in front of me and what do I do? Squander it. Thus with a whole weekend of to use, I'm once again left on the last day with mounds upon mounds upon heaps upon piles upon loads upon babies of homework. Perhaps I exaggerate, but the point is there.
I often wonder why exactly I do this. I know I'll do it. I fully expect it. Yet I do nothing to stop it. It leaves me with something to do, sure. But it really makes me wonder why. I suppose I keep thinking "just get through this semester, everything afterwards will be easier." Ain't foolin' yourself great?
But yes, self-destruction seems to be a popular theme. Things I should do, things left unsaid, undone, undecoded, unaborted, unexploded, things any rational person would convince themselves to try because they know it's the right thing to do. Ah well, such is life. Or is it? I can't really tell, I'm too distracted, confused, or generally inarticulate to notice most of the time. I should do so many things. I can do so many things. But finding a reason, a will, and a way are the real problems.
On the brighter side, I seem to have encountered a change of mind and for some reason I haven't been living in despair this weekend, as is customary for most extended periods of nothingness. I'm not quite sure what it was, maybe the drugs the CIA or concerned citizens have been injecting into my apple juice are taking effect. Perhaps I made some wonderful discovery that I forgot to tell myself of. Maybe I was just tired of depression. Or just maybe the cycle is in full effect. Suffice it to say, that whatever the reason I'm in an almost upbeat mood. As upbeat as I can get, anyway. Must be something in the bottled water (but that's a story for another day).
Anywho, enough about me. Perse's next installment is up. I've decided to try to update it weekly, and if it's more frequent than that I'll let ya know here. I'm getting a kick out of it and next week's adventure should be rather interesting. It's peculiar how you can get ideas for different works and incorporate them into a long, continuing story. We'll just have to see how it goes. I'd like some feedback on it, what you like and dislike, so if ya comment there I'd appreciate it. Also, if you want to make a collaboration effort on a different one with different people writing consecutive entries, post here. Only if you'd enjoy it though, I've got my story now hehe. Until next time.
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